A Mixed Week

This past week started out well with Church last Sunday. Great service.

But the rest of the week?

Not so good.

I have worked at my current place of work for over 15 yrs.

I think I am getting sick of it....

Shall we call it burnout? Major burnout?

Yes, let's do.

It's a deadend job, but the only thing that is keeping me there is my wages.

There is no way that I can go back to just the minumum wage. No way.

My second job is at the minumum and it sucks. But that is just extra money.

I don't know. The frustration and the anger is building up each day I go to work.

I keep asking God....Why am I here? What purpose is there for me to be there?

All I am doing is supplying books to students who don't give a care about anyone but themselves.

On top of all this, I am feeling like crap, physically and spiritually.

In 27 days, I will be going on a 2 week vacation.

A MUCH needed vacation. To be by myself and God. To think on what's happening in my life and where it's going.

Am I having a midlife crisis? LOL Probably so. Just a few years earlier than I wanted.

But that might be good in the long run.

Maybe all this is God's way of getting my attention. Only if I can just be still and listen.

That's hard for me for I am constanly on the move - more in my head with thoughts running around and around.

Hopefully, I can last another month till my vacation. I hafta.