A Mixed Week
This past week started out well with Church last Sunday. Great service.
But the rest of the week?
Not so good.
I have worked at my current place of work for over 15 yrs.
I think I am getting sick of it....
Shall we call it burnout? Major burnout?
Yes, let's do.
It's a deadend job, but the only thing that is keeping me there is my wages.
There is no way that I can go back to just the minumum wage. No way.
My second job is at the minumum and it sucks. But that is just extra money.
I don't know. The frustration and the anger is building up each day I go to work.
I keep asking God....Why am I here? What purpose is there for me to be there?
All I am doing is supplying books to students who don't give a care about anyone but themselves.
On top of all this, I am feeling like crap, physically and spiritually.
In 27 days, I will be going on a 2 week vacation.
A MUCH needed vacation. To be by myself and God. To think on what's happening in my life and where it's going.
Am I having a midlife crisis? LOL Probably so. Just a few years earlier than I wanted.
But that might be good in the long run.
Maybe all this is God's way of getting my attention. Only if I can just be still and listen.
That's hard for me for I am constanly on the move - more in my head with thoughts running around and around.
Hopefully, I can last another month till my vacation. I hafta.
Comments
You can last. Really.
And those students? Right now they don't care. But the leadership of tomorrow can't do anything if someone doesn't supply those books to them.
Yeah, I know what you are saying.
I am just wondering what the heck I am doing here, that's all.